Being a Mommy!

My mother in law sent me an e-mail today about women who stay at home to raise their children, how a mother bonds with her child as soon as she becomes pregnant, and how being a mother is the most important job a mother could have! I've felt kind of guilty/bad lately becuase here we are, going to have our third baby and we can barely afford the two we have. Our children have never gone with out food, it's just the small things. Alex could use clothes in the worst way! He has four pair of long pants and about six shirts that still fit him. I wish I made an extra income so that if I needed to go buy clothes, toys, shoes, anything the kids wanted or needed, it would just be so nice! I've thought about getting a job many times. But, Danny has said that he didnt want me to have to comute, and in all honesty, I dont want to either. So that leaves very little option out here. There's Lins. When I was working full time there I was bringing in $1,200 a month. Do you know how much day care costs a month? $1,200! Then there's Ace and Home Hardware. They pay even less than Lins. They pay $6.50-7.00 an hour. Lins starts at $7.50? If I remember correctly.... Then there are the good jobs like Moapa Valley Water Co, Telephone Co, Overton Power Dist, Credit Union. Which are very rarely to never hiring. People who get jobs at those places work there until they retire because they are the best paying jobs in the valley. Anyhoo... just knowing that being at home with the kids is so very important to them as it is to me, it makes being dirt poor worth it! We wont struggle for ever, it will just take a while to get back on our feet. Everything will be worth it in the end, I just know it will be :)

I Am Thankful For....

In the spirit of November, the "Thanksgiving" month I thought that I would reflect on all the things that I am thankful for. Even though, I am thankful everyday of the year, not just on Thanksgiving and I am thankful for everything from the hair on my head to the toenails on my toes, this list is that of what is most important to me. So, I guess it's what I'm the most thankful for :)

1. My children and their good health

2. My husband

3.My family (who have to put up with my crazy pregnant hormones!) (everybody)

4. All of the challenges in our lives, they have only made us stronger.

5. Danny's and my good health

6. The roof over our head, whever that roof may be.

7. The food in my kids' bellies

8. The fact that no matter how bad things have gotten, we've stuck together and pulled through.

9. The clothes on our backs.

10. The simple things in life. They just make life worth living.

11. For my true friends .

12. We have running vehichles that are in good shape.

13. Even though Danny and I aren't really church "goers" I am thankful for the church and it's teachings.

14. I am thankful that there are so many things to be thankful for.

Happy Halloween

Danny and Cam. Danny is where Cam gets his eyes from. (and hair color)

My sisters and I

My spooky ghost, Alex

My little monkey, Cam

Terrifying, right?

Our first time trick or treating!

First stop, Grandma's house! I think I was just as excited as the kids were.

Waiting for all the kids to come to the door.

On our way to go trick or treating. Cam could've cared less...

Alex was so excited!

Being a complete stinker! He clibed up on the table and destroyed it!

One of my many pumpkins

More pumpkins

The spookiest one, all lit up.

The week of Halloween was a super busy one! The Monday before, my sister, Nadja and I went to see "Paranormal Activity 2". It was a very scary movie! It didnt really seem to sit with me, though, like the first one did. The first one freaked me out for months after watching it, the second, didn't really bug me so much. Maybe because I see the first one as being more plausible than the second.....
Tuesday was my sisters annual Halloween party! It was alot of fun! Had great food and the kids ran around like maniacs!

Wednesday, I didn't do a whole lot. I was worn out by the previous adventures.

Thursday, I went to my dr app. I was sad that the baby was uncooperative and had it's legs crossed and was very difficult to see if we were going to have a baby boy or girl. (I totally have a feeling it's going to be a boy..)

Friday we had lunch at Grandma Shacks house then went to the trunk or treat at the grocery store. I wasn't very unimpressed by the trunk or treat, but the kids had a blast. Being so tired that day, I wasn't in the best mood.

Finally, Saturday, we took the kids trick or treating! Since our neighborhood is pretty ghetto, we decided it would be better to take the kids to Logandale around Grandma and Papa Bradford's neck of the woods. Their neighborhood is very nice (other than it would be nice if there were street lights..). After we finished there, the kids wanted to go to more places, so we took them to Country Lane. By the time we were done there, it was 9:00, which is way past all our kids' bedtime. Alex didnt want to leave, but everybody was out of candy and turning off their house lights. Alex fussed a little, but as soon as we got home he told me, "mom, I'm tired. I need to go to my room and rest." (so cute) After the kids were put in their beds, they didn't make a sound! They were out like lights!

Alex is already talking about next year.... I'm just looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas! lol!

Pretty Lame!

I dont have any new pics to post (which is one of the reasons i am so lame.)
Life has been really uneventful lately. Danny was working five jobs at the same time, so we dont see him a whole lot, other than a couple hours in the evenings. He has a little work lined up for now and we're just hoping that it keeps on coming! He also might be getting a job at Mesquite Lumber when it opens it's door's back up, which will be really nice if he does! We will get full benefits and a regular paycheck, which I dont think that we've had steady income in the last two years or so.. So, if you can understand the excitment!
Pregnancy...... Well, lets just say that i'm just as cranky as ever, lol! Our poor dog is really dumb, and I tend to take out alot of frustration on her. I really just dont understand how one could get in trouble so many times for the exact same thing and still just not get it. I so wish we could afford obedient school! Anyway, enough on Sally! She really is a good dog! She loves her kids so much and they love her, she's just an idiot.
One week from today I have a prenatal visit! My doctor is going to check to see if he can tell us the sex. Even though the incident with Cam kinda makes me a little sceptical, I'm still super excited and hope baby is competly visable (if you know what I mean). Cam had a cord between his legs and wasn't very "visable" so doc thought he was a girl. Come to my surprize at my 20 wk app, he was a boy. Let's pray that doesn't happen again :). We really are hoping for a girl! My boys are awesome, and I love them more than life itself, but I could really use a change of scenery :)

Mommy's Little Pottie Mouth

So, as of recent, Alex has learned some new vocabulary, thanks to his daddy :). Saturday LSU was playing, and if you've ever seen an LSU game, you know that sometimes that have a hard time pulling it out. It was the last quarter and there was only about, maybe five min left or so (cant remember exact) and LSU was just making Danny mad so he yelled at the t.v. "GET THE D#$% BALL!!!" and of course Alex yelled the exact same thing at the t.v.! Danny didnt notice because he was in his little "zone", but I heard it, and honestly, it gave me a good laugh! After the game was over I asked Danny " did you hear Alex? He was repeating everything you said." Danny then asked, "did he say d#$%?" "yes", I said. We both kind of chuckled a little. Then yesterday Danny was making our dinner and Alex was pushing his little fourwheeler around and it got stuck on the rug and Alex says "sh^$". I turned and looked at him and asked "what?!" and he said something else as he looked at me and smiled and Danny says "that's not what he said" I said " I know, I just wanted to se if he'd say it again". I honestly cant say that it makes me mad and it definatly doesn't offend me. It kind of makes me laugh! He never hears those words from me, but he learns them in a few min of spending unsupervised time with his dad. It makes me laugh a little.

Farewell Mr. Dash Kittie!

Sadly i dont have any pics of my cat (not in the computer anyway). Friday Mr Dash went to his new home, Papa Markosek's! We've had mr. Dash for about 5 1/2 years! We got Dash after I had two miscairages. The first one I was 10 wks 5 days along (devistating!), my second I was about 5 wks along I'd just found out I was expecting (only three months apart). After expierencing what felt like the end of the world, I wanted to have a baby and be a mommy soooo badly! So, one day I came home with Mr. Dash! We were in a "non- animal" apartment, so we had to keep him hush hush for the two years we resided there with him! When Alex came along, at first Dash was very protective if him, but as Alex got bigger, Dash decided he didn't like him. Then two years later, Cam came. Dash was very unhappy by this! One year after Cam came, came Sally. Our awesome boxer dog! Dash absolutly hated her! After putting up with Dash hiding on top of my kitchen cabinets, shedding all over our counter tops and fur getting into my food, the cat had to go! Danny kept telling me "no" but I finally got my way. No more yucky cat hair! We haven't really missed him much (other than Sally, she wants to chase him) but him not being here has been the same as him being here. We never see him :) All is peacfull again hahaha!

New Comings....

So, as you all know, we tried to get us a loan mod on our house. Our monthly payments are just under $1,900, which in this economy has been way more than we can afford! When we first started working with the bank we were quite optomistic. They really seemed like they wanted to help us. As time went on they seemed less and less eager to help, and seemed just to not care. We only had one person who was really helpfull! That was it! So, we filled out all our paperwork, got everything ready for them that they asked for, sent it off, then the waiting game began! About six weeks came and went and we hadn't heard a single thing! So, Danny called to get to the bottom of everything and the people at the bank told us "that there was nothing they could do for us because we didn't get our paperwork in on time!" That was a big hunk of CRAP! We had gotten everything to them six weeks earlier, which was about five weeks before our "deadline" and our paperwork just sat on somebodies desk, ignored! We of course are less than impressed with Bank of America! Why put somebody through so much stress if your just going to screw them over? I'd rather be screwed over from the getgo. It's alot less annoying and stressfull that way! Anyway, now we'll be moving shortly (with in the next few months or less?...) Thank goodness we have a friend with a rental that has been vacant for a long time and he's only going to charge us $600.00 a month. Which is pretty amazing for something that is not an appartment. It is an old double wide trailer, but it's in good shape and will provide us shelter for who knows how long?.... So, I'm pretty excited about that! For now, that is our life. Stressfull! We're pretty bumbed about losing the house, but i think that it might just open more doors for more oppertunities... Hopefully anyways.