Girls Shopping Day :)

Since Father's Day is Sunday, I decided I would go to walmart to get Danny a present. I left the boys with Grandma then Elyse and I went to Mesquite. While there we got Elyse's ears pierced. I was a little nervous... I have my ears pierced, but it's been so long that I have no idea what it felt like. It has been 20 years!! (I feel so old when I can say something happened 20 or more years ago!). I then thought of immunizations! No way getting her ears pierced would be as painful or stressful as those are!  She did good! She sat on my lap while two ladies pierced both ears at the same time. She was upset for a minute or so, then she was perfectly fine! I gotta say, she looks adorable! I don't dress her in a whole lot of pink, I'm not a huge pink fan, so I get asked a lot if she's a boy or a girl. Even though she looks like a girl. I don't dress her in boy clothes, all of her clothes are girly, but she wears a lot of blue and yellow. So, of course that makes her a boy, right?! GGRRRRR.... Anyhoo..  She looks so cute with her little 14 KT gold pink heart CZ earrings :) . It was so not a big deal! After getting her ears pierced, we got her some new onesies. It's too hot for any actual clothing this time of the year! Got Danny's present, which is a pool! I can't wait to lounge around in it for the rest of the Summer, even though my body is so NOT swim suit ready right now. I don't care.... I'm going to let the flabby flab all hang out so I can get a tan. Then, we got some hot and ready's and came home. I gotta say... I LOVE SHOPPING! I spent all my spending money for the next two months on our pool, but it'll be worth it when I'm tan and the kids are happy!

How Can Somebody Be So Evil?

  I don't know if you've heard of the Jodi Arias trial, or not. I've been completely sucked into it!!  I'm going to share my thoughts and what my theory is what happened that evening and what she says happened. 

First of all. She is so full of crap! She wouldn't know the truth if it slapped her in the face! What she said when she was brought in for questioning about his death. "I haven't been to Mesa (AZ) since April. I wasn't any where near there."  Interrogator "What if I told you I had photographic and DNA evidence that you were there?" Arias, "Are you sure it was me? I was no where near Mesa at that time, I hadn't been there since April.". Interrogator-" Yes you were your DNA was mixed in with his.". Interrogator leaves, Arias starts singing and does a handstand on the carpet.

Next story, because she was there. She was heading to Utah to meet up with a guy. When she told Travis he told her to come To Mesa first, so she did. When she got there, there were two Caucasian people there in ski masks. Travis was on the floor screaming, there was blood everywhere and one of them held a gun to her head and pulled the trigger and the gun misfired. So she took off running down the stairs and out of the house, where she left Travis to die. She stuck with this story for a couple of years.

Next story. What she said "really" happened. Like I said there was photographic evidence of her being there. So, she was there, Travis invited her. They had sex took a bunch of risky pics of each other, he gets in the shower and she starts taking pics of him. They were trying different poses for her portfolio. He then got mad, lunged after her, she ran into his closet, got a gun and shot him. First of all, he didn't own a gun. Secondly, the same caliber gun that she used to shoot him was the same caliber gun that was "stolen" from her grandparents house one week prior. (will get into that story when I go into my theory of what really happened.) She didn't remember stabbing him 29 times or slitting his throat and nearly decapitating him. she "was in a fog". And- autopsy report said that  he was already dead by the time he was shot. in his head....

 My theory. About two weeks prior to his murder he and Jodi had gotten into a huge fight. He told her she was evil and the worst thing that ever happened to him (was he wrong? no!). Nobody knows what she'd done, but him and her. One week later, a her grandparents home was "broken" into where a few items were stolen including a .25 caliber hand gun. She makes plans to head to Mesa before she heads to Utah. He doesn't know she's coming and she goes right before so she somewhat has an alibi. She was out traveling on her way to Utah and got lost and drove over 100 miles out of her way (she left messages on his cell phone after she killed him and this was one of the messages she left). She'd rented a car, dyed her hair brown when it was dyed blonde before and on her rental car she'd turned the license plates upside down. She did these things so she wouldn't be recognized. She had filled five-five gallon gas tanks up with gas so she wouldn't have to stop for gas on her way to AZ. She drives all night and gets there about 4:00 in the morning he's awake, in his office watching youtube videos. I think she was hoping he'd be in his bed asleep where she could just kill him and head out. But, he was awake. She stood in the office door way watching him for 30-60 seconds before she said anything to him.According to her they had sex in the office and went to bed, woke up at about 1:00 p.m. had sex again and I'm assuming they ate lunch and whatnot. He goes and takes a shower, I think that she'd pretended to leave and he thought she'd done so. He's in the shower she comes in and starts taking pictures (which does not know. The flash is not on in these photos) then he realizes she is taking pictures of him. In the picture he looks completely surprised, like "you're still here? and what are you doing?" It was two minutes later that the camera snapped a picture of her shoe and the bottom of her pant leg standing over his profusely bleeding body. Another picture seconds later of his body being dragged across the floor. He fought like crazy for his own life. His hands and arms covered in defensive wounds. He tried to run... Now, if what she said was true, he was attacking her, she would've had to run out of his bathroom, through the bedroom, down the hallway, down the stairs, into the kitchen, where she got the knife and then back up the stairs, down the hall way, through the bedroom, into the bathroom, where he still was? If her life was in danger like she said it was, don't you think that he would've been chasing right behind her? I'm assuming he was a faster runner, he was bigger than her, and stronger. Don't you think that this would've had a completely different ending if that were true? And if he was, wouldn't you have just kept running out the front door? It was 5:30 p.m.. People are just getting home from work at this time. You could find help! I think that she had the knife somewhere on her while she was taking pics of him. Either tucked in her pants, or tucked in her bra. She took pics because in her sick twisted mind she wanted to be the last person he saw before he died and she wanted it to be evidence of the last time she saw him before he died. The first place she stabs him was in the heart. He comes out of the shower coughing up blood all over the bathroom sink. He starts running down through the bathroom hallway where I think he collapsed, she slit his throat, drags him back to the shower, just tossing him in there. naked, just, yeah. Shoots him in the head with her .25 caliber, deletes all the photos off the camera, sticks it plus bloody sheets and towels into the washing machine. Starts it. Washes the knife she used in the dishwasher and leaves.

Now, what do you think happened? I think she was a psycho, cold hearted woman! and that's putting it nicely...

Why Do I Get Myself Worked Up So Much?

Today we went to the specialist. I've been dreading this day since we left the hospital! I went in thinking the very worst! I relived our hospital experience and wanted to cry! I thought they would start poking Elyse with needles, prodding her and just doing all these horrible things, that they need to do, as doctors, but horrible for everybody involved. I made my very sleep deprived husband go with me, because I had to do the hospital thing by myself. No way I was doing it again, by my self. I also feared i wouldn't like her doctor. I'm picky about doctors. I've switched pediatricians three times, and OBGYN's once. I don't go to the doctor until I feel like I might die! I think doctors should all be people persons and pediatricians SHOULD be kid and baby people! That's just the way it's supposed to be!! Back to the specialist.... I really liked him! He talked to us like we were people, not stupid people, just people. He further explained the diagnosis. He told us they'd do an ultra sound in three months and the dye (can't remember the technical name for this) when she's one year old. She has to stay on antibiotics until she's one. They'll up her dosage with growth, then hopefully in a year, everything will be all good! No more reflux is what I'm hoping for!!

Here is Elyse being born. The cool thing about a c-section is you can take a pic of it!! I remember when I was in labor with Cam, it was only Danny and I in the hospital and my nurse was taking the pics and asked if I wanted any of him coming out. "No!" is basically what I said. Could you imagine that picture? YUCK! I didn't want to scar anybody for life, lol! C-sections, unless an open belly bothers you, it's kind of cool.  

Below is Jonny and Elsye. When she's on the floor playing he's not ever very far away. He loves her so much! He cant wait until she is big enough to play with him!

One Scary Day

Last week Elyse came down with a mysterious fever. All of the boys had had the same thing happen. They ran a fever for a short amount of time, then it went away and they got better within a day. When the same thing happened to Elyse I thought it was just the bug the boys had all had. Her fever would come and go and did this for three days when I decided to call her doctor. Her fever was never really high, but I just wanted to check things out because she is so young.  We go into the dr the next day, on Friday. I had the a/c on in the back of my car, so there was no explanation other than fever as to why she was so warm. I took her out of her car seat to go up to the office because she's getting heavy in that thing!! She felt extremely warm to the touch and her face was red.  She hadn't been crying or anything, she was asleep. We get called back by the nurse and she weighs Elyse, and she was 9 lbs 9 oz. She took her temp and it was 104!!! Her Dr. was standing right there and said you need to get her to Summerlin Hospital immediately!! We went into the examining room, and I was crying my eyes out! Dr. Mendoza checked her out quickly to see if it was her ears or throat causing the fever, but they were fine. We left as he called the hospital to let us know we were on our way. I called my family to let them know that Elyse was sick and we were on our way to the hospital. I cried the whole drive, sometimes having difficulty seeing through my tears!! We get to the hospital and were taken back to the pediatric E.R. immediately where they started testing as soon as we got in. They gave her a big dose of tylenol, drew her blood, started an I.V., put a catheder in and got some urine (it was cloudy), then, worst of all, they did a spinal tap! They did a quick urine test and determined that it was a UTI and informed me that she had to be on IV antibiotics for seven days. SEVEN DAYS in the hospital!! They started antibiotics and she was admitted. I cried so hard that day!! Her uncle Chris and uncle Nathan gave her a wonderful blessing that I cried through. I cried so much that my head throbbed! We spent the next seven days in the pediatric unit. Our first night, Elyse didn't sleep a wink and she pulled out her first IV. They replaced her IV and she slept for an hour, in bed with me... I hate sleeping with infants! I was so scared I was going to smother her... Our time there was pretty uneventful. Just IV antibiotics, a lot of napping, and sitting around. I did go to target on our third day. I had one pair of jeans that Elyse had pooped on. I was gone an hour...  On the day we were getting released the pediatrician came in and said they were going to inject dye into her bladder to see if they were backing into her kidneys because an earlier ultrasound showed that her kidneys were swollen. We got wheeled down to radiology where they did the test. It came back that her bladder was backing up into her kidneys. On a scale of 1-4 of severity she was at a 2. So, she is on antibiotics, once a day to prevent infections. We have to go see a kidney specialist. Should be fun.... My hopes are that it will just correct itself with time, but if not, we're looking at surgery. Thank heavens we know what's going on and can be proactive. It breaks my heart to have my eight week old go through this crap, but luckily, she wont

remember any of it.

A Post All About Me!!!

It's all in the title. This post is all about me. Likes and dislikes. Hopes and dreams exedra exedra.... Where should I start?? How about dislikes, in no particular order, of course!!
How do I put this gently without sounding like a horrible person? I don't really like children! I know that's weird coming from somebody who has four of her own, but I just don't. I love my children including nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends children, but I often find myself wanting to smack other people's children. Maybe if these children's parents would occasionally spank their children, I wouldn't want to... My children are far from perfect (and yes I do believe in the occasional spanking), but these big attitudes get to me!! I hope I can teach my kids to be respectful, but to be honest, somedays they are anything but! I give permission to anybody to smack my kid if they are rude or disrespectful. Sometimes I wish Alex or any child still got spanked at school. Children were so much better behaved when there were sore tushies at steak! No, I don't believe in beating a child. There is a huge difference, so get off your high horse! I just believe in discipline, that's all.
I hate my neighbors! I see the cops over there way to often! They scream at each other outside and use very foul language, language that I don't want my children to pick up on. To be honest, i'd like to see them all carried away in handcuffs!!
I don't love our house. As a matter of fact, I don't really like it. We've fixed it up so it's nice enough. But, it is what it is.. So not our dream house, but it is a roof over our heads!
I hate cooking! I do it because I feel it's my duty as a wife and mother. I'm not that good at it, but the fam will eat it, so that's all that matters.
I swear I'm not a horrible person... Oh, one more dislike.. I hate my body!! I need to magically tighten my deflated belly and boobies! Cellulite, stretch marks, wrinkles, dimples, bumps.....Bla!! I'd change my smile, too, if I could...
Time for some redemption!
I love my family. I think I got pretty lucky in the whole family department. Yes we all drive each other crazy at times, but we go together well!!
I like to clean, even though you'd never tell by walking into my house! My kids have my house destroyed so fast, you'd think that I never ever cleaned. But, I do. I do everyday! It frustrates me that it doesn't stay that way more than five minutes, tops (think I'm kidding?). These days I'd rather snuggle Elyse than clean, though... I can't seam to put her down! I love cuddling with my newborns, because you blink and it's gone! They aren't newborns very long..
I love babies. Even strangers babies. They are all so sweet and innocent. No I don't go around stealing babies, though. I admire them from afar.
I LOVE, LOVE junk food!!! My ideal meal would consist of ice cream and chocolate bars. Probably why I hate my body so much, haha!
I love the smell of clean laundry, though I don't like washing it.
My hopes for my children is that they would grow up to be outstanding young adults/adults. I hope they grow up to be obedient, respectful, kind, loving, and amazing people. Let's hope we as parents don't screw them up!! I take parenting very seriously. Most days my children might drive me to drink, and then bedtime comes. Everyday we start fresh. Everything from the day before is in the past and we get through everyday, one day at a time. Being a stay at home mom is a hard job. Being a parent is hard. I try. That's all I can do. My children are not easy going, calm, or laid back. They are strong willed, stubborn, and have tempers. They can be exhausting. But, they are awesome!! With that being said.. Alex will be home soon, so I have to go outside to wait for his bus. Until next time :)

Due Date

Today is my due date with little miss. She will be three weeks old tomorrow!! I don't really know why, but it's just crazy to me! I had a scheduled c-section for last monday, the 25th.
i'm just so very thankful that she is here and healthy! She has been growing like crazy since she's been born!! She weighed 5lbs 2oz at birth. She only lost a couple oz before we left the hospital. At eight days old she weighed 5lbs 9oz.At 15 days old she weighed 6lbs 8oz, which was Cam's birth weight. It's amazing to me... She just had to be born so she could grow!! I'm guessing she's 7-7 1/2 lbs now. The girl can eat!!!
Some feelings I've been feeling since she's been born (not all are based around her.)

Complete. I feel so blessed to complete our little family with such a sweet little spirit.
Overwhelmed!! Danny has been working nights and sleeping during the day. I've had some rough days...
More in love with my little family!! I don't know if it's possible, but I feel so blessed to have a healthy beautiful family.
Sad... There have been some lonely days where I just sit here with my angry Jonathon, misbehaving Alex and Cam, and extremely spoiled newborn. It can get overwhelming to where I just don't know what to do. Thank goodness it's not an everyday thing.
As miserable as being pregnant is, I totally miss it!! I miss feeling and watching my belly move around. I miss a little game I played with myself called "name that body part".
It's completely weird, but putting away my maternity clothes made me a little sad. It usually does after I've had a baby.
I always get "baby blues" and after Cam was born I got ppd. It sucks...
The past couple days I've been wondering why I chose the repeat cesarean. I had two babies naturally, I could've done the VBAC. My dr was willing, but at the time I didn't want to. I was scared of being in another emergency situation. I probably would've been fine. Elyse probably would've been fine. I was happy with my decision to do the section up until about two days ago.. My belly is still tender and all I can think about is working out and getting skinny again. It was completely my decision, so I need to get over it.
I have a fear of my tubal not working (don't need to worry yet..). My dr told me that it was a 1 in 300 chance (if i remember correctly) of it not working. I told him that if it were to not work on somebody, it'd be me!! He told me that him and Martin take a little more tube out than necessary to make sure it's a little more successful. So I probably shouldn't worry so much about it. But I do.
I worry so much. Not just about Elyse, but all my newborns! I have a fear of them dying of SIDS! I wake up so many times during the night to make sure they're still alive! This is why my babies sleep in my room right next to my bed either in a swing or bassinet. Because I don't want to actually have to get up. I hate worrying so much, but I do!!
Elyse has dimples!! I'm a huge sucker for dimples... I love dimples :) Her left dimple is deeper than her right. Right now you can only see them when she cries, because her smiles are mostly gassy smiles right now. She does have a little smirk, though. She gets that from her aunt Noni :). I just love the dimples, haha!!
These are my completely random thoughts as of late. Not that exciting....

Life As Of Late

It's crazy how much life changes every time you bring a new baby home. The first baby is the easiest. You sleep when they do, you clean, get ready for the day, and eat when they sleep. With every kid you bring in to the home it gets harder and harder. When Elyse sleeps I take care of the other kids and by the time I'm done. she wakes up and wants to eat again. I've tried to keep up on everything, but i've failed. My house looks like a huge A-bomb went off. I look like I haven't slept in days (and I have) and my kids are always filthy! I bathe them and within minutes they are covered in dirt again! It's frustrating because I hate bath night! They fight with me the whole time, then when they're done, they're dirty again. It's always such a huge adjustment. Jonathon hated me for about two weeks and now he's past the hatred and onto the fit throwing and "fighting for attention". I try really hard to give all the kids the same amount of attention but right now, Elyse has been getting most of my attention. I feel so bad and have ended up in tears a couple times because I feel so bad. Newborns are helpless, they cant do anything for them selves, so it's easy to give them so much attention. Alex and Cam have had major attitudes lately. They've been really sneaky, getting into everything. They sneak stuff they know they aren't supposed to have into their room. Danny has been working nights the past couple weeks. He leaves about 3 p.m. and gets home about 5 a.m.. It has been so hard being here completely by myself with all four kids. I just can't get anything done! I love being home with the kids, but I need a vaca! Dr. Swainston, is my suite done yet? LOL!! Swainston told me that I was a mother that if he had the space, he'd build a mothers suite/spa in his office. Oh, wouldn't it be nice?? I'm really trying to cherish these times with my kids because they grow up so fast! The past six years with Alex went by so fast, it makes me sad. It hasn't slowed down with any of the kids. With Elyse being our last baby, I do admit that I have a hard time putting her down. I could sit and hold her all day, every day! She has become quite accustomed to this! She is so spoiled! She is a very good little baby. Quite the little princess :) Life will get easier once we all get into a routine, but not really having a routine has really just messed us all up! That's it for now. Hopefully I can just get my kids to bed on time, lol!