Uh Oh, She's Got Baby On The Brain!!!!

So, my baby Jonathon just turned seven months old on the 11th and I'm getting SO baby hungry! It doesn't help that he is the perfect baby. Even as a new born... How he got here was a pretty scary ordeal, but he was born completly healthy and has been since. He has NEVER been colicy. Even now that he's teething, he can get fussy, but he just has a very happy personality. He was the best "mistake" ever, lol! Alex and Cam were super colicy, so I wasn't planning on having another baby for a very long time, if at all... They're all such little mirracles! I love all of my kids so much! The thought of anything happening to them sends me into panic mode... Anyway, back to baby! So, I've had baby on the mind like crazy lately and am seriously starting to REALLY question my sanity lol (like I wasn't before..). You can never get the first year of your baby's life back, so why in the world would I want to rush into another baby? I do have reasons....

Reason #1- I'm getting old! Since my 28!! birthday is in three weeks, in just two more years i'll be 30! YIKES!

#2- I know ALOT of prego people right now, and it's CONTAGIOUS!

#3-I love the feeling of a baby moving around in my belly (that's the ONLY thing I love about pregnancy.)

#4- I want a little girl, dangit!

#5- growing up I always wanted a big-ish family (even though now adays four kids is considered big.)

#6- I've just had a feeling that I have another baby waiting for me. I've had this feeling since I was pregnant with Jonathon. (I'm really hoping that this so-said baby is a girl, though.)

Reasons to wait......

#1- I kind of have the feeling of "robbing" jonathon of his first year.

#2- We are DIRT poor!

#3- Cam is not pottie trained yet.

#4- Alex does NOT wake up in the night to go pottie (he wets the bed), so I force him to wear a diaper to bed still. That would be very expensive! (even though I only need to buy diapers for Alex every six months or so)

#5- Newborns kind of scare me! I love the cuddles and most things, but I hardly sleep due to the fear of my baby not waking up! I have to make sure they're breathing every hour!

#6- I'm pretty sure Danny does not have the urge to have another baby yet, which is completly understandable.

#7- I would be completly overwhelmed, even though Alex does start school next Fall.

#8- I had to cancel our health insurrance due to us being DIRT poor..

I guess we'll all just have to wait and see what will happen. I dont even know yet :)

We Are FINALLY Going To Be Saying Goodbye To Our House!

The fire place and tree last Christmas.
Danny and our tree, Christmas Eve last year

Halloween 2011

The Kitchen



Yes, WE ARE FINALLY MOVING! The last two year have kind of been a little bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me as far as our house goes. First we were moving to GA, then we were staying, then we were moving, then we were staying, then we finally made the decision to just give up on the bank because there was no way they were going to help us. We cant afford our mortgage at all! It is a little over $1,800.00. Four years ago we could afford it, two years ago, we couldn't at all, sadly. We've talked to so many people, and have been "evaluated" so many times for a loan mod, but since Danny is self employed and had/has no work, the bank was righfully weary to give us the mod. I can completly understand why, but it still sucks! So, we got another notice of trustee's sale on the door yesterday (we have'nt gotten one in a year) and just decided to head out before we're forced out. I'll miss alot about "our first home" like my fireplace, high ceilings to put my big A#$ Christmas tree up, our view...(we have the best view in the valley right from our windows!). Oh, and the lack of really close neighbors. I love not having people live really close to us. I'm excited for our new house, though. It will be a fun new experience! We've decided to head out before the "sale" date, which is the 28th of this month. I dont think this place will sale anytime soon, but we'd rather not have to hastle with being evicted. So, here's to new beginnings, lol! I'm already starting to feel the stress!

Alex, Cameron, and Jonathon

Alex and Cameron are getting so big and smart! Alex LOVES his music class and looks forward to it every week! He is learning how to listen to and understand music. I love that he has something to look forward to each week. It makes him so happy! Cam is loving learning Alex's music stuff also! He sits with Alex when we do his homework, and i'm teaching them both their letters and numbers. Cam is learning his colors as well. Alex already knows all of his colors! These two little boys can both keep me sane and drive me insane! I love all three of these little guys so much! I really cant remember life before them! It really feels like they've always been here, which makes me feel good that i've loved being a mom so much! Being a parent is the hardest, most fullfilling job you can ever have! You can either raise your kids to be outstanding people, or not so outstanding.... Hopefully I dont screw this up, lol!
This sweet, sweet, little boy! He is just under seven months old (will be on the 11th). I'm so thankful for all three of my little boys! I'm also so very greatful that this little booger got here safely! C-sections are definatly not ideal, but i'd do 20 times over to get such a sweet little guy! Jonathon is now rolling all over the place! He just decided a week ago that he wanted to. He's a ways off from crawling, which is a-okay with me! I just want him to stay sweet and little forever! He's working on two little teeth. I can see them just under the surface of his gums! Even though he's chewing on everything, his mouth hurts, and has a cold, he's still unusually happy!

My Last Ghost Story: Messages In The Mirror

When I was about 12 or 13 years old (my parents were divorced) my mom was out of town for some reason and my dad was staying at our house. Lara and I were both at one of our friends' house's and Nadja and my dad were at the house. Nadja was in her room listening to music and reading like she usually was and my dad decided to take a shower. He turned on the water to heat it up and he was just waiting for the water to heat and he heard somebody walking in the hallway. He thought it was nadja, so he opened the door to look and there was nobody there. He then knocked on nadja's door to see if it were her walking through the hallway and she said "no, i'm in here reading". He said "ok" thought he was hearing things and that was that. He walked back to the bathroom and noticed something written on the mirror in the steam. In the mirror were the words "hi unc ed!" He freaked a little then went back to Nadja's room to ask if she'd somehow done it. She thought he was crazy. She looked in the mirror and sure enough, it had been written on. It looked like it was written by something thicker than a finger, but not thick enough to be something more than a finger. We think it was cousin Dana because she always called him "Unc Ed". It was a little unnearving becuase we left it on the mirror for forever! We thought it was fun to scare who ever even dared to come over. I wish I had a picture... I cant remember how long it took us to finally wash our mirror, lol!

Who's That Girl?

One of the many Saturday mornings, my mom was the only one awake, in the kitchen washing dishes. She was washing away when she heard a little sigh. She thought, "oh, Lara's up" (there was no way Nadja or I would be awake that early on a saturday..). So she looked over to where she heard the sigh and to say good morning to Lara and it wasn't Lara. It was a little toe-headed girl, probably about eight years old with big bright blue eyes. When my mom looked at her she smiled, then walked off and dissappeared. My mom said she looked alot like my cousin Lara Leavitt when she was little. My cousin died when I was about three or four, I think she was about 16, 17 years old.. I remember sitting in the hospital whem she was sick. The whole family was there, and I remember being excited about getting McDonalds for dinner. Anyhoo... Who ever this little girl was, she was no threat. My mom said she seemed to just be checking things out.

Ghost!

When Nadja was a jr in high school, she was home alone getting ready for school. She was standing in front of her mirror, her music was on. Her door was open ab0ut a foot so she could clearly see out into the hallway. She was puting on her make-up and she heard a noise coming in from the hallway. When she looked she saw something very unexpected. A full body apparition. "It" i say it, because she said he didn't look human, was a man, about 6'4". Longish black hair, wearing a trench coat that went all the way down to the floor, and his face was terrifying! He was standing in the door way looking at her. She was of course very startled! She ran out of her room as fast as she could, running through the "man", and left the house as quickly as possible. She ended up getting to school an hour early that day. She'd never been so scared in her life!

Poor Little Delilah

Yesterday I was gone most of the day. When I got home I took the puppies outside to go pottie then brought them in the house to let them play then after a while of playing I put them in their kennel so they could get some food and water. Miss Delilah was fine at this time. She was running and playing and just her happy little self! An hour later, I was sitting on the computer and I could hear one of the puppies wheezing. I looked in the kennel and it was Delilah. Her eyes were watery, her nose was running and she was foaming at the mouth. I took her out of her kennel and she was unresponsive and having a really hard time breathing. I kind of paniced! I tried to look down her throat to see if she was choaking, but she wouldn't let me open her mouth and her face was so slimy from the foam, boogers, and tears I had a hard time gripping her jaw. I threw all the kids into the car pretty fast. I had to ask Alex if Jonathon was in his carseat, becuase I wasn't sure I put him in there, ha! I took her to the vet and Dr Kris was on her way to go immunize some cows, so she told me she'd call me on her way back and she'd meet me at her office. So we waited. Danny came home, so I left the kids with him and took my dad home because he was going to sit in the car with the kids while I was in the vets office. Poor delilah had to get knocked out because she kept biting dr Kris' fingers when she was trying to look and feel down her throat. Good news, she wasn't choaking. Bad news, she has strep throat!!!! Her lipnodes and tonsils were swollen and her throat was full of mucus. So, the reason she couldn't breathe was because her lipnodes were basically strangling her (which is why they call it the strangles in puppies). So she got a shot of stearroids to hopefully shrink her lipnodes, some antibiotics and i've been spraying in her throat with chloraseptic spray and giving her benadryl for the mucus! Poor little girl! It came on so fast! Now I just HOPE AND PRAY that none of the kids get it and NO MORE PUPPIES get sick!