Goldfield - Nevada Ghost Town

Goldfield - Nevada Ghost Town

5 Months old already!!

My baby boy Cam is five months old today!! He is the sweetest, layed back little boy!! He is a very happy little guy which makes it so easy for me:) His tricks are rolling over back to front (both ways) and front to back (only one way). He laughs, "talks", smiles, tries reaching for people, and toys (but does not have much control of his hands yet). He is just such a little joy!!He loves playing with brother and can not wait til he can get up and run around with him.

He is very uncuddly!! The only time he will cuddle with anybody, is if he's dead tired!! He'd rather be playing than cuddling!

For the most part he's sleeping through the night. He'll wake up for his binki about 5 a.m. (and I still get up and give it to him) and wakes up for a bottle at 7. Then I put him back to bed, because i'm still tired, and he'll sleep til 8:30, 9 only Alex wakes up at 7:30, 8. It's just wishfull thinking to actually want to sleep in past 8, some day when i'm 100 i'll get to sleep in:) Anyhoo... My next post will be Alex's 2 1/2 year post, which will be on the 1st. My baby's just refuse to stop growing!!

Disconnected??

Lately i've been having a hard time, being somewhat of a "single mom", stressing out about putting food on the table. Last month for the first time I had to choose to either pay all the utlilities and buy groceries, or pay the mortgage. Of course I chose the utilities/food over mortgage. (did pay mortgage too, but was late) I feel so disconnected from myslef and everyone around me. It's a very strang feeling! It feels like I'm watching my life go by through somebody elses eyes. Kind of like I'm a zombie, I guess? Every day is the same, I wake up feed the kids, get them dressed, I usually dont get breakfast because by the time I get everybody else taken care of, it's almost lunch time. I play with the kids, feed them both lunch put them down for a nap, lay down for a half hour or so then either Alex escapes from his room, or Cam wakes up. So, i get up and play some more and try to clean up the house. Play with kids til dinner time, give them both baths and get ready for bed, put them to bed then I'm so tired but have so much to do but too tired to care. Every day is the same thing, I'm just so exhausted!! I so need a spa day!!! Get pampered, have no worries for a couple hours. If only we could afford that.... Oh well!!

Fun time swimmin

Lara, Chris, Davis, Allie, and Christopher got a new inflatable pool/slide. As soon as I found they got it, i was itching to get over there and try it out!! Today Alex, Cam and I went over there for lunch and we decided to go "swimmin". It was as much fun as I thought it would be!! Alex and I went down the slide at least a thousand times, the same for Davis and Chris. Us grown up's had as much fun, if not more than the kids did. These are just some pics of our fun day of swimming:)

3 Months Old!!

So, Cam turned three months old today. His first two months were kinda rough, him being super colicky, but for the most part he has grown out of it. He is a happy little boy who loves other little kids. He will sit and talk to Alex for 20 minutes until he makes him cry by either pulling his hair, poking him in the eye, sticking his fingers in his mouth, or hitting him. Poor little kid!! Anyways, Cam is such a sweet little boy!! The older he gets the more he looks like Alex. He is not sleeping through the night yet. He still wakes up once or twice, but he goes to bed at 7:30. If i kept him up later he'd probably sleep longer, but I like him going to bed before Alex, so i get a half hour of just Alex and mommy time, where we read every book he owns because that is one of his favorite things in the world to do. Some of the thing's Cam can do is smile, he loves smiling!! Coo's (he tells many stories!) he can laugh, he focus's really well, without his eyes crossing. He absolutly hates tummy time, so I dont make him (I'm bad I know) He is just a sweet little guy and we love having him around!! He's my sweet baby:)

Memorial Day

Every year on memorial day, my mom and i get up and go to the cemetery and visit my grandma and grandpa Bowlers grave and put flowers on it. This year Nadja, Nathan, the kids, Lara and her kids all went with us. For as long as I can remember (back when I was younger and grandma and grandpa were still alive) every year on memorial day, we'd go put flowers on my great, great aunts grave? (something like that) Roam around for a while visiting friends graves visiting with the people who were there paying their respects to their loved ones. As soon as we were done, we'd go to McDonnalds. As my grandpa got older and worse (suffering from alziehmers sp??) It got more and more interesting. It was always, kids go get my purse and get out a thousand dollars so we can go get some breakfast at McDonnalds!! He would always say large amounts of money, and Grandma being completly aware would get frusterated with him. "Oh Grant!!!" She would say. She was such a funny little lady!! Always scolding us, grandpa, whoever. I have so many memories of them and miss them dearly!! Til we meet again!!

Danny being home

My little boy Cam is such strange little duck!! Since Danny has been up in Utah working for the past three weeks, the boy's dont get to see their dad at all on the week days. On the days Danny is not here, Cam goes to bed around 7:30-8:00 and will sleep until either 3:30-5:30 then sleep until 9:00 in the morning. When Danny is home, I cant get Cam to go to bed before 10:30-11:00, then he wakes up two or three times during the night. He just so badly wants to stay up and play with daddy!! It's really cute, but at the same time it's kind of frusterating for me, because I like the kids to go to bed early so I can get a littl "me time" before bed. I love my kids, and I love being a mom, but everybody needs time to themselves where they can just relax!! Cam needs to get used to daddy being here, because he's been going away on the week days since he was only 6 weeks old and now he's 10 weeks old.
Alex, on the other hand has been acting out alot more when Danny is not here. He throws at least one really bad temper tantrum a day, and wont nap (which is why he throw's temper tantrums, because he's super tired!) Alex has always been a really big mama's boy and so, when ever the baby starts crying he thinks that I should ignore the baby and hold him. I tell him that Cam needs hugs too, he just doesn't know how to talk yet so he cries. Sometimes I get too frusterated with Alex, and I shouldn't, it's just hard doing this by myself and i tend to get overwhelmed!! I keep telling myself that this is only termperary and hopefully sooner than later, Danny wont have to go up to Utah!! Anyways, we are just lucky that Danny has been able to work and for that I am extremly thankfull!!