Popularity Brings Contempt

I've never been one to have tons of friends. I have always been anything but popular, and I'm okay with that, but lately something has been bugging me. I've always been quiet and kept to myself, and you'd be surprised by how many people do not like this! People don't like quiet people. I used to be cool with this. I always said that if they didn't like me, it was fine because I don't need them, and that I didn't like them either. I guess just lies I told myself to make myself feel better.. I've missed my best girl friend, Ciara so mauch lately. I love my hubby, and I LOVE hanging out with him, but I miss my Ciara. I really miss having a friend who doesn't judge you no matter how retarded you really are. She was always next to me being a retard right along with me. Right now I have my sisters.... That's about it. I love my sisters. I love hanging out with them. They are fun to be with! I feel like my life is missing more friends. Now that my kids have their little friends, I want to be friends with their parents. In all honesty, they don't like me. I just seem to repell people. Poor me, lol! Oh, what can you do? I am who I am, and that just doesn't sit well with people.