This is Me Coming Clean...

First of all, I hate the blogger format I refused to switch, but it just switched me. I dont like it...
Secondly- we have to get rid of my dogs. My sister and brother in law took Delilah and this makes me happy, but I dont know where Sally is going to end up. I've had a love hate relationship with her lately, but I'm still going to miss her. Yesterday they climbed our fence went over to the neighbors house dug up their entire front yard (they'd fertilized and seeded just on Sunday) then they shredded their chickens. Not kill, shredded! I'm so mad, because now we have to get rid of both and this makes the kids and I very sad! Why do they have to be so stupid! Anyways... Someday when we have a better fenced yard, we will get another dog! Just one, though. Keeping two big dogs is extremly expensive! I dont to small dogs. I find them irritating.
Last, but not least.. Drum roll please!! We are expecting another baby! I'm now over the "scary" part of pregnancy (even though it never stops being scary to me!) but I'm now somewhat comfortable enough to share the news! I just barely told ny kids today. On the way to my dr.. LOL! Alex said "seriously? Seriously?! I'm so excited! It better be a baby girl! I dont want another Cameron or Jonny Cakes" LOL! Those were his exact words... I told him we'll have to be happy with whatever we get because sometimes in life, we dont get to make choices. I personally think it's going to be another boy. My dr laughed at me when I told him this and then he told me he'd pray for me, lol! It's nice that he has a sense of humor!
Anyhoo! That is all for our exciting lives..

 Oh wait!! Our old house hasn't forclosed on so we decided to do a shprtsale and there is an offer on it! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it!

Kidergarten

 Alex was so nervous and overwhelmed

 He didn't quite know what to do or think

 Danny giving Alex a pep talk

 Mom, what are you doing here?

All ready for his first day of school!

Alex started school this year. His first day went a little like this... We got up around 9:30 a.m.. Alex was so excited, it's all he could talk about! He was all grown up and going to school!I fed the kids breakfast, played for a short time, then fed the kids lunch. After lunch it was time to get Alex ready for school and get myself and all the kids ready for the day. By this time it was time to go outside to wait for the bus. While waiting I had a really hard time keeping it together! Alex kept saying "I know you're gonna miss me mom, but sometimes you just have to let me go.". This just made me tear up more! i couldn't believe how big he'd gotten! His bus got here and I was so busy crying my eye's out that I didnt even get a picture of him climbing on the bus for the first time. I serously cried, hard, for 20 minutes! We then went to the school to show him where to go, and I cried some more. By the time the bus had shown up I was calm and finally had a hold of myself! We waited forever for the bus to show up then we sat and watched the kids play in the blistering heat, then once the teachers called all the kids in we left.

I can homestly say that I wish kindergarten was full day. I thought i'd have a rough time, but he's not gone long enough for my to get anything done, lol! It would be cool if he was gone all day. I still have a lot of anxiety about him riding the bus. The second week of school, he got off the bus, almost in tears, saying that there was a little girl calling him garbage and obviosly it hurt his feelings! I talked to his bus driver and she exactly who the girl was because a lot of parents had complained about her being a bully. Thank goodness that it has stopped and he's having a good time! Learning lots, making friends. I'm happy for my little man. I'm very proud of him and love him so much! Everything is good!

Our Lives of Late..

Jonathon gets cuter everyday!

I got my eyeliner tattooed on

I've  found several of these in my house!

Everyday after dinner the kids go swimming

I change a lot of poopies!

We celebrated the 4th!

Jonny discovred drinking from a hose

We celebrated fathers day by me cooking

Alex took a nap!!

Doodles is getting cuter everyday!

My boys are getting so big!

Doodles became a monkey..

Sally got spoiled

Danny had a birthday!

Alex learned how to use the microwave

Jonny learned how to walk

Doodles loves his monkey

Delilah is happy! Look at that smile!

Chuck E Cheese's, Where a Kid Can Be a Kid

The kids were pooped!!

 Ski ball. The boys' favorite part was putting the coins in the slots.

 Jonny loved Clifford the big red dog

Doodles

On Monday  we had to go to Vegas to meet with a creditor (yeah, we owe a lot of people money, unfortunatly). After setting up payment plans we took the kids to Chuck E Cheese's. The kids had a blast! It took them about 10 minutes to eat their lunch then they played in the arcade for three hours! Jonathon LOVED the teeny tiny carousel! It had four little ponies and only spun around, but he loved it! I'd put him down and it'd be the first thing he ran to! It was cute! Danny took the Alex and Cam to play on all the arcade games and I chased Jonathon around the whole time and put him on all the little rides. He loved it, they all did! After playing and wearing out the kids, we went to Walmart and got Alex some school clothes. I still cant believe that he'll be starting school in just a few weeks! It's crazy!!! On the drive home all the kids passed out. It made me laugh because they were even snoring! It was definatly a success! We'll for sure have to do it again :)

Just, Why?....

Honestly, nothing has been going on here at the Bradford household... This past week I've been in the crappiest mood. I know, shocker, right? I've been so stressed out about Alex starting school and Danny and I have been talking about, again, some major changes in the near future. I dont want to say too much about it because there's a chance that it wont happen, but it might.These "changes" stress me out. I so wish we could be financially set. I know that i'm always complaining about not having money and poor us.. I know what most would think.. "Why dont you get a job?" and to you i'd like to say "BITE ME!". I;d love to take some of the financial stress off of us, but the truth is, me getting a minimum paying job would just add more financial stress. Daycare is expensive, especially since there are NONE in Logandale/Overton. My family all has their own kids to take care of and my mother in law is a very busy person. I could never ask any of them to raise my kids. I guess everything will someday all work out for the better.
On to important things. This world is seriously going down the crapper! When some wacko goes into a movie theatre at midnight and starts shooting everybody!? It's just so sad.. I feel like there have been so many deaths lately. Some natural, most not.. My great Aunt Amy passed away a few weeks ago. She just turned 90 and had lived a long, full life. This past week a young mother and her little boy (who was Cam's age) was killed in a car accident. I cant even think about it without crying! They left behind a husband/father and a daddy and brothers. How sad is that?! A couple babies have left this world, one living only two hrs, and one passed away at 21 weeks gestation. All this sadness is really getting to me. I know poeple die all the time, but usually not like this. It makes me so sad. Have I just always been unaware? It's just a lot for such a small valley.. Anyways, enough with the whold "Debbie Downer". Life is not bad, you really just cant take it for granted. You never know if tomorrow is your last day here on earth.

Oh, I almost forgot! The best news EVER! My friend's Blair and Ciara finally got a baby! They've been trying to adopt for what seems like a life time and they finally got a sweet baby boy! He's in the hospital right now because he was born at only 28 weeks gestation and right now he's only 33 wks gestation, so he'll be in the nicu for a while, but he's doing so well and growing. I am SO,SO, SO happy for them!!

Boredom

So, Summer is here! The heat is unbearable. We have a little kiddie pool, but I just about die going outside long enough for the kids to swim in it. It is big enough for me to fit in it, but, I really dont want to be seen by ANYBODY wearing a swimsuit.. It ain't purdy... We spend way too much time indoors. I dont remember being inside this much when I was little, but I dont remember it being so hot either.



VBAC vs. RCS

So, i've been thinking about this a lot lately! I started thinking about it when Jonathon was first born via emergency c-section. But now I'm thinking of actually trying to get pregnant again in the near-ish future. The thought- vaginal birth afer cesarean or repeat cesarean section... Lately it's ALL i can think about,  oh and the strong chance that I could possibly have a blood clotting dissorder called thrombophelia. How do I know this? Both my sisters were diagnosed recently and it is genetic. How it's treated? Giving yourself a shot in the stomache throughout pregnancy to thin your blood. So, if I were to try a vbac although the chances of uterine rupture is rare, it does happen! To my advantage, though, I've had two previous vaginal deliveries. Both labors only lasting four hours. As far as labors go, four hours is considered to be really quick. BUT, I was induced both times. I've never gone into labor on my own and I dont think I'm willing to go over my due date. I dont think that anything good comes from going over. So, back to the vaginal vs cesarean. The chance of uteran rupture is 0.04%. I've never had much luck and am scared that I would be one of the unlucky ones. The chance of a mother diing by uteran rupture 0.02% but the chances of a baby dying is 0.07 %. If I did have to be on blood thinners i would think that my chance of bleeding to death during rupture would increase significantly. One would think, anyways. The whole thing just gives me panic attacks! All I know is that I refuse to get pregnant again before I talk to my dr, because I'm freaking out! The worst thing that could happen is that I die leaving my babies without a mother or the baby dies leaving the family without a sibling/child. I just dont know if the risk would be worth it....